I am certain we have all had moments in our lives where we felt a bit lost. Life can feel as if it is moving in a direction that we are unsure of, or maybe it feels as though its moving so fast that we are falling behind and losing sight of what is ahead. Lately, I have been encountering these feelings a lot, and the more I have had time to sit and spend time with these thoughts, I have realized my feelings are stemmed from the big shifts and changes that are occurring in my life and with those around me.
While these transitions can make us feel like we’ve taken a wrong turn and headed somewhere we weren’t expecting (this can be good though!), I feel that the direction we are headed is the one we have ultimately chosen. That subtle or not so subtle shift in direction will for sure lead us on a path we have not yet travelled, but it is our conscious or maybe unconscious decision to make this change ( big or small) that we feel is both necessary and important. Taking that leap can leave us riddled with fear, anxiety, and worry, and we may second guess ourselves, but is that not normal when we are diving straight into the unknown? I always seem to have this image of astronauts, launching themselves into space. That, is really diving into the unknown. The first step is always scary, or at least for me it always is, it is natural to feel this way. We are creatures of habit, and I’m sure I have talked about this before, but we have our rituals, straying from our typical routine can feel foreign, but sometimes it can feel right too!
I think it is really important to acknowledge whatever it is you feel, but stay open and receptive to what is to come next before you start bashing your own potential and worthiness. It’s a constant work in progress but learning to be really ‘ bad’ at something for a long time is how you get ‘good ‘at anything, really. Lots, and lots of dedication and practice. Anything new that I dive into always initially makes me feel nervous and sometimes overwhelmed. I remember the first yoga class I ever taught, I remember how nervous and terrified I was, but I also remember how it didn’t take long for me to just TRUST that everything was going to be okay. This has been a big thing for me, many of my fellow yoga teachers, close friends, and mentors have reminded me time and again, to TRUST that every is going to be fine, and that everything is going to happen as it should. It always does.
Coming back to this idea of trusting in the unfolding flow of the universe is what grounds me and brings me back to the present moment, that and focusing on my breath. Embrace and acknowledge that you may be afraid, unsure, and fearful and begin to ask yourself questions. When I stop to notice what I am feeling and why, I start to understand and see what I had not noticed before. You just might discover that you were never lost at all, but there was just a fog making it difficult to see what’s ahead. This is a good time to pause. Close your eyes.Take three really big breaths in through your nose. Slowly exhale. Open your eyes.
Love & Light
My dear friend, Oceantann, who is an amazing artist and founder and creator of oceaninspace.com, is helping me create some super cute stuff to help build up my little yogi empire, which will be less of an empire and more of a super fun hangout space, maybe something like an ‘ island of awesomeness ; consisting of yoga, cats, food, and lots of other cool sh*t’.
I call this image, ” Everyday “. I’m sure those of you who have pets understand what its like every time you get on your mat to do yoga, workout, or meditate. I’m not complaining, life is more interesting, more full of love with our furry babies.
Stay tuned for more stuff in the next little while!
A few weeks back I was talking with my partner about meditation, yoga, and inspiration. He had mentioned Bob Ross, and looked at me with a bit of a stunned look when I said I didn’t know who he was–I feel like there are a bunch of things I missed growing up as an only child. So we searched for a video on Youtube and I soon became mesmerized by Bob Ross’s show, ” The Joy of Painting”. I’m sure a lot of you remember watching this show in the late eighties and nineties until its final show in 1994.
During the 26 or so odd minutes that Bob taught us how to paint a beautiful mountain landscape, I realized that he was teaching me, and who ever else has seen this video, a lot more than just how to paint. He infused this half-hour instructional video with reminders to let go, trust, and to be present, which is often taught in yoga and meditation. How awesome was it that he was doing this so everyone could tune in and watch in the comfort of their own homes?
Bob Ross was teaching mindfulness through painting, whether this was initially his intention on not, and I am thankful I have discovered him as an adult. Lessons, inspiration, and your mentors can be found all around you and can take on many different forms. Be open to the possibility of learning from every moment, every interaction and infuse these lessons into every aspect of your life.
Kombucha is pretty neat. If you have never heard of it, it is a fermented tea (usually black or green, but sometimes oolong and pu’erh teas are used). The fermentation process starts with a SCOBY, also known as a Symbiotic Colony of Bacteria and Yeast, which sounds kind of gross but it’s actually pretty cool. It looks like a sponge-like disk ( image below) and is sometimes called a mushroom. The tea is sweetened with sugar before it is combined with the scoby which then feasts off of the sugar leaving you with a naturally fizzy drink. The finished product is usually slightly sweet and a bit sour, although different brews vary depending on the length of time brewed and the type of tea.
Now, Kombucha isn’t everyones cup of tea ( literally), but I enjoy it; its also a healthier alternative to pop which has a ton of sugar and other crap thats not good for your body. The probiotics that are a by product of the fermented tea and Scoby can ‘ heal your gut’, but research on the benefits of Kombucha are still ongoing and its hard to say to what degree this is fact, I just know that it makes me feel good!
I recently decided to venture into brewing Kombucha at home. Which can sound scary, since you are dealing with an active bacterial culture, but so far its easier then it looks! The important part is making sure everything is clean, to avoid any sort of contamination, and to keep an eye on the ferment process. I watch it like its my baby, my little fungus baby. I mostly watch what happens everyday and take notes of the tastes, smells, and what ever observation I notice because I have no idea what I am doing!
Experimenting with something new is taking a leap into uncharted territory, which always brings forth feelings of fear and worry, but it shouldn’t stop you from giving anything new a shot! Whenever I feel this way I remind my self to trust and that it will all be okay. If I fail, SO WHAT? One of my fellow yoga teachers said that to me when I was feeling discouraged, and it’s something that I say frequently when I catch myself undermining my own capabilities. SO WHAT? Regardless of what the outcome there will always be lessons to be learned, and you will have something to add to your list of experiences!
Making your own home brew is like having a little science experiment in your kitchen, and once you feel comfortable you can experiment in other ways by creating custom flavours! This batch was made with a green tea and I flavoured it with orange, lemon, and ginger. Yum! Have fun, get creative, try something new, and make something new I guarantee it will be worth it!
I still remember the day vividly; I consider it a pivotal time of my life, it was the day that I fell in love with yoga. As someone who was never very athletic, never played on sports teams, my inactiveness made me feel like a weakling, on top of always being the shortest person in the room. When I found the practice of yoga, it shook awake a creative connection to my physical body, my emotional body, and my spiritual body, although it would take sometime before I truly realized this.
My realization of how important it is to move your body and cultivate a deeper bond to this vessel that willingly carries me occurred when I finally decided to take my yoga teacher training. This journey of uncovering a deeper awareness for my body actually began the day I went to my first yoga class in 2009, but when I finally did my yoga teacher training in 2013 this was when I truly felt like I was unlocking something sacred and beautiful. This amazing practice has taught me so much about my self, about kindness, about love, about understanding, about listening, and it continues to teach me every single day. When I finished my training I knew that I wanted to share this with everyone around me.
So far, and yes I know that I have only taken a few steps on this path, this has been an incredible journey and I have met some of the most amazing and inspiring people. Like any journey though, it is not without its challenges. Most challenges are like little bumps, the road gets rough with a few pot holes that you have to navigate around, but nothing that you feel you cannot overcome. But, what happens when you reach a wall?
I am sure you have experienced this too, you feel like you have made it so far along the path you have been travelling on only to look ahead to see a wall. When you look up further the wall is so tall that you think to yourself, ” There is no way I can climb that! Where am I suppose to go now? “. Recently, I found myself in front of a wall, one that was pretty tall, and definitely unclimbable. I was feeling particularly down on myself, I don’t doubt that part of it was the winter blahs, I noticed that I was doing the same thing every day and the motivation to create something or make something seemed like it vanished–kind of like the snow on the ground ( I live in Canada where there is suppose to be snow in winter!). The stagnation in my life made me start to think that , ” maybe I should quit and stop teaching yoga, maybe this isn’t what I am suppose to be doing”. Along with that came the long list of things that I knew I wasn’t doing that I’ve been procrastinating for months ( or longer)–one of them was a new blog post on my empty looking website.
I didn’t write up this post to announce that I have given up, and I certainly didn’t write this post to whine about how unmotivated I have been; quite the opposite actually. The first thing I did once I realized I was letting these thoughts get the best of me was take the time to acknowledge how I was feeling. I began to talk to friends. I reached out to friends and family, people I admire, to talk about ideas, to talk about what its like to feel lost, bored, unmotivated, to talk about dreams and goals. And it helped. It reminded me that this isn’t a lone journey, I have many people by my side, friends, family, strangers, acquaintances, people that inspire me. We are all in this together, it’s important to reach out, share your struggles because we have all been there at some point and needed help climbing out of the hole we may have dug for ourselves. It is important to realize that there is always another way, another route, it may have been hidden or covered but it is always there.
I decided to not give up, to not quit, because I love what I do, and I cannot give up on a journey that has only begun. I encourage you to do the same. Yes, it won’t be easy, but it is always worth it, there will always be someone or something that shows you a path you never knew existed. Face your fears, acknowledge how they make you feel, move forward, and don’t look back. You’ve got this, because we’ve got each other.
If you made it to the end of this post. I thank you for taking the time to read, I hope it has brought you some light to your day.
Love you always,