Finding Your Way Through The Fog

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I am certain we have all had moments in our lives where we felt a bit lost.  Life can feel as if it is moving in a direction that we are unsure of, or maybe it feels as though its moving so fast that we are falling behind and losing sight of what is ahead.  Lately, I have been encountering these feelings a lot, and the more I have had time to sit and spend time with these thoughts,  I have realized my feelings are stemmed from the big shifts and changes that are occurring in my life and with those around me.

While these transitions can make us  feel like we’ve taken a wrong turn and headed somewhere we weren’t expecting (this can be good though!), I feel that the direction we are headed is the one we have ultimately chosen. That subtle or not so subtle shift in direction will for sure lead us on a path we have not yet travelled, but it is our conscious or maybe unconscious decision to make this change ( big or small) that we feel is both necessary and important. Taking that leap can leave us riddled with fear, anxiety, and worry, and we may second guess ourselves, but is that not normal when we are diving straight into the unknown? I always seem to have this image of astronauts, launching themselves into space. That, is really diving into the unknown.  The first step is always scary, or at least for me it always is, it is natural to feel this way. We are creatures of habit, and I’m sure I have talked about this before, but we have our rituals, straying from our typical routine can feel foreign, but sometimes it can feel right too!

I think it is really important to acknowledge whatever it is you feel, but stay open and receptive to what is to come next before you start bashing your own potential and worthiness. It’s a constant work in progress but learning to be really ‘ bad’ at something for a long time is how you get ‘good ‘at anything, really. Lots, and lots of dedication and practice. Anything new that I dive into always initially makes me feel nervous and sometimes overwhelmed. I remember the first yoga class I ever taught, I remember how nervous and terrified I was, but I also remember how it didn’t take long for me to just TRUST that everything was going to be okay. This has been a big thing for me, many of my fellow yoga teachers, close friends, and mentors have reminded me time and again, to TRUST that every is going to be fine, and that everything is going to happen as it should. It always does.

Coming back to this idea of trusting in the unfolding flow of the universe is what grounds me and brings me back to the present moment, that and focusing on my breath. Embrace and acknowledge that you may be afraid, unsure, and fearful and begin to ask yourself questions. When I stop to notice what I am feeling and why, I start to understand and see what I had not noticed before. You just might discover that you were never lost at all, but there was just a fog making it difficult to see what’s ahead. This is a good time to pause. Close your eyes.Take three really big breaths in through your nose. Slowly exhale. Open your eyes.

Love & Light

Rebecca xo

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Lessons of Love, Kindness, Letting go, and Going with the flow

A few weeks back I was talking with my partner about meditation, yoga, and inspiration. He had mentioned Bob Ross, and looked at me with a bit of a stunned look when I said I didn’t know who he was–I feel like there are a bunch of things I missed growing up as an only child.  So we searched for a video on Youtube and I soon became mesmerized by Bob Ross’s show, ” The Joy of Painting”. I’m sure a lot of you remember watching this show in the late eighties and nineties until its final show in 1994.

During the 26 or so odd minutes that Bob taught us how to paint a beautiful mountain landscape, I realized that he was teaching me, and who ever else has seen this video, a lot more than just how to paint. He infused this half-hour instructional video with reminders to let go, trust, and to be present, which is often taught in yoga and meditation. How awesome was it that he was doing this so everyone could tune in and watch in the comfort of their own homes?

Bob Ross was teaching mindfulness through painting, whether this was initially his intention on not, and I am thankful I have discovered him as an adult. Lessons, inspiration, and your mentors can be found all around you and can take on many different forms. Be open to the possibility of learning from every moment, every interaction  and infuse these lessons into every aspect of your life.

Rebecca xo

Meditations from a Canadian Paradise

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Hey Friends! After a little two week vacation visiting friends & family in Kenora, On, and Brandon, MB I’m back in London Ontario and ready for the next adventure! We all need a little escape from the bustle of our busy lives and to take time to reconnect with others and the abundant nature that surrounds us.  Although it seemed a bit inconvenient and frustrating at times, being without internet and inconsistent cell phone service forced me to put down my phone and  my laptop to disconnect from the digital world and reconnect with myself.

Looking back, I’m glad I had the opportunity to just sit back and relax and take in the fresh air, trees,  lake views, and indulge in the beauty of life itself. Indulging can be challenging as a yogi, once you become attune to all the subtle and not so subtle shifts that can happen in your body and mind when you have too much of a thing ( i.e chocolate, beer, food, ). We can get it in our head that we are a bad yogi if we drink beer or eat bacon and eggs for breakfast( and yes I do these things). I think the worst thing you can do is make your self feel bad for the decisions you have made. You have to take full responsibility of your choices–and lets be real,  no matter what you do or say, someone else may not agree with you. THAT IS OKAY!

If we strive for perfection we are just going to find ourselves feeling like we are never good enough.  We have to remind ourselves that it is the little choices and decisions we make day to day that benefit everyone as a whole. Be the best possible version of yourself in this very moment and keep in mind that there will always be things that you can change and improve. Everything is constantly evolving, changing, and morphing into different things.  I’ve spent way too much time ( and still do from time to time) comparing myself to others and wanting to be as good as so and so.  Be yourself. Be your best self today, and remind yourself  that every single day.

Take time away for you, for your soul, for your heart, for your mind. Whether its only 5 mins of meditation in the morning before work, or a weekend out  of town, or an adventure to somewhere you’ve never been, it doesn’t matter. Just remove yourself from what was or what will be and just be present in the now. As Ram Dass would say, ” Be here now”. 

These are a few reflections I had while I spent the past two weeks away.  I feel alive, rejuvenated, and fresh with a brand new perspective. I’m ready to take on what ever comes  my way.

Rebecca xo

 

You are the love. You are the light.

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 I’ve spent a lot of time letting myself feel worthless, not good enough, and a failure.  My own personal journey through Yoga has helped me to stand up to these sorts of feelings and remind my self of the truth; that I am worthy, I am enough, and that my failures don’t define me, they merely teach me a lesson.  Life  changes and fluctuates, just as the tides of the ocean come in and out of the shore.  Sometimes  I feel my emotions are stronger than me, and I succumb to the power of my own thoughts. I am sent  into a tail spin of belittling comments I have stored away for myself, ” You aren’t that great of a yoga teacher, you don’t have the confidence of so and so, you haven’t even read the Bhagavad Gita yet, you don’t meditate enough” .. you get it. On and on I let myself become depressed, and completely absorbed by a sea of thoughts that DON’T define me.

I know I am not alone, and this is why I am speaking up.
I may never be rid of these thoughts, but I shall never let these thoughts prevent me from continuing on the path that I am on.  Just like  in yoga, when we find ourselves in a challenging pose we think, ” I can’t do it”,  often our mind tells us that so we listen and want to quit. As soon as we are in an uncomfortable or challenging position we want out. We don’t want anything to do with it. Even writing this blog post I am thinking, whether I even want to post this.

We are creatures of habit, it takes time and constant positive affirmation to break certain habits, but YOU GOT THIS. If its not going to kill you or harm you, don’t stop. Keep on going, you will be so happy you did. Stay dedicated to your practice and your passions, what ever they look like.  Your journey is very different from everyone else’s. Everyday there is a new lesson to learn, there will be new obstacles to jump through, and new doors that will open. Stay positive. Stay humble.  You are deserving of everything you do. You are deserving of love, happiness, joy, and wealth. Don’t be someone else, be you, be your best self.  There will always be something positive in every situation. You are not alone!

We are all trekking through our separate journey’s alongside each other.

You are the love and you are the light.

peace &  love

Rebecca

 

Springtime Self-Reflection

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With the change of season,  the snow has begun to melt, temperatures rise,  and  the sun shines brightly. All these things bring such delight to many after a long, cold, and dark winter.  I love when the seasons change; I feel like each time it reminds to me to sit, reflect and let go of stuff I’ve been dragging around so I can move forward into the spring months. I tend to spend a lot of time hibernating in the winter, I’d much rather stay home than go out and face the elements. Home is comfortable, safe, and warm.

When spring rolls around, I am reminded that its time to come out of my shell, move out of my comfort zone, try something new, get outside, get in touch with friends near and far.  Since we are creatures of habit, Its easy to fall  into a routine of staying within our comfort zone.

Get out there. Go for a walk, go for coffee with a friend,  meet new people, try something new, ask for a raise,  go read that book, just do whatever it is you’ve been waiting to do.  There’s no better time then now.

Winter Dreaming

When its blowing snow outside, and the temperatures are lingering at – 20c with windchill, like most people, staying indoors is usually the more favoured choice.  I enjoy spending time at home  to reflect, relax,  learn, drink tea, and cuddle with my cat,  Yuna.
Today I gazed out the window to see a curtain of white snow swirl about the sky.  It made me think of home. I come from Kenora, Ontario, Canada a small town near the edges of the Ontario-Manitoba border.  For most of my life, frigid long winters were pretty normal, with temperatures dropping to -30 ( not including windchill) quite regularly. Getting dressed meant bundling up in layers, breaking a sweat while getting ready, and waddling your way outdoors… atleast I imagine my younger self waddling with all that winter gear on. But, despite those long hard winters, there is a lot of beauty  in that small town.  These images I took a few years ago, but its nice to be reminded to cherish the beauty in the season, and  the moments spent with friends, family, and pets.

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The Journey within

In yoga, we acknowledge that the journey begins when we allow ourselves to let things go,  in order to create space for new things, opportunities, or experiences.  Often, that sense of release occurs when being still– for me its especially after a dynamic Asana practice. When you are still you are able to take everything in, you can sit and observe your surroundings, and your internal workings. Through the stillness, the quiet, you can go deeper.  Every time you close your eyes and sit still, even if for a few moments, you allow yourself to peel away layers of yourself.

Do you ever eat Ferrero Rocher’s( If you don’t know what these are its a chocolate with hazelnut filling in the center) by biting them in half, revealing the best part, the gooey hazelnut centre? You know with every box of these chocolates there is that sweet gooey deliciousness inside, you just have to take that first bite to discover it.  That sweetness, authentic-ness, wholeness,  truth, love, or whatever word you would like to use, is within every single human being, you just have to take that first  little bite to tap into it.  Seek it out, and you shall find it.