Searching for Creativity

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After graduating from university, it seems that keeping up with a creative flow  has gotten increasingly more difficult. The structure of a class setting is beautiful in guiding you into different ideas, projects, opportunities, and allowed you to go off and create whatever you desired ( almost), but once you leave, any sort of structure is up to you. You are the ones to push yourself to continue to create, evolve, learn, grow. For this,  I understand why some stay and school the majority of their life.

I‘ve always been a procrastinator, and sticking with a project long enough to complete it has also been a challenge. I get bored, I have to move on.  The numerous unfinished art projects that have cluttered my parents home, leaves me feeling slightly distressed.  The questions I have been asking myself lately is,  ” How does one find the creative energy and drive ? How do I create the life I want to live? What kind of life do I want to live?”. My partner can be incredibly focused on his projects, spend hours working on the production of a song he just created until he feel it is finished, often times forgetting to eat.  I call him a completion-ist, and this is one of the things that I admire most about him.

Okay, so how does one who doesn’t have much focus, is easily distracted, and is always hungry find that type of focus?? As of yet.. I don’t know.  This thought has troubled me always, and I have very easily taken to comparing myself to others while  being self- deprecating of myself as a creative individual. This is why I have decided to blab about it here on my blog, because  I could continue to sulk in my pit of I’ll-never-create-a-blog-like-so-and-so, or I can just get off my high horse and do something.

So I’m doing something. Writing, because it feels good to get your thoughts out of your head and onto a space where I can read it aloud.  I just started reading ” Big Magic” by Elizabeth Gilbert–love this woman,  and I’ve started the engines . The search begins now.  And on this journey when I discover that beautiful thing called focus I shall be sure to tell you how I’ve found it, and on your own journey maybe you can find it too.

Until next time

Peace & Love

Rebecca

Meditations from a Canadian Paradise

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Hey Friends! After a little two week vacation visiting friends & family in Kenora, On, and Brandon, MB I’m back in London Ontario and ready for the next adventure! We all need a little escape from the bustle of our busy lives and to take time to reconnect with others and the abundant nature that surrounds us.  Although it seemed a bit inconvenient and frustrating at times, being without internet and inconsistent cell phone service forced me to put down my phone and  my laptop to disconnect from the digital world and reconnect with myself.

Looking back, I’m glad I had the opportunity to just sit back and relax and take in the fresh air, trees,  lake views, and indulge in the beauty of life itself. Indulging can be challenging as a yogi, once you become attune to all the subtle and not so subtle shifts that can happen in your body and mind when you have too much of a thing ( i.e chocolate, beer, food, ). We can get it in our head that we are a bad yogi if we drink beer or eat bacon and eggs for breakfast( and yes I do these things). I think the worst thing you can do is make your self feel bad for the decisions you have made. You have to take full responsibility of your choices–and lets be real,  no matter what you do or say, someone else may not agree with you. THAT IS OKAY!

If we strive for perfection we are just going to find ourselves feeling like we are never good enough.  We have to remind ourselves that it is the little choices and decisions we make day to day that benefit everyone as a whole. Be the best possible version of yourself in this very moment and keep in mind that there will always be things that you can change and improve. Everything is constantly evolving, changing, and morphing into different things.  I’ve spent way too much time ( and still do from time to time) comparing myself to others and wanting to be as good as so and so.  Be yourself. Be your best self today, and remind yourself  that every single day.

Take time away for you, for your soul, for your heart, for your mind. Whether its only 5 mins of meditation in the morning before work, or a weekend out  of town, or an adventure to somewhere you’ve never been, it doesn’t matter. Just remove yourself from what was or what will be and just be present in the now. As Ram Dass would say, ” Be here now”. 

These are a few reflections I had while I spent the past two weeks away.  I feel alive, rejuvenated, and fresh with a brand new perspective. I’m ready to take on what ever comes  my way.

Rebecca xo

 

You are the love. You are the light.

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 I’ve spent a lot of time letting myself feel worthless, not good enough, and a failure.  My own personal journey through Yoga has helped me to stand up to these sorts of feelings and remind my self of the truth; that I am worthy, I am enough, and that my failures don’t define me, they merely teach me a lesson.  Life  changes and fluctuates, just as the tides of the ocean come in and out of the shore.  Sometimes  I feel my emotions are stronger than me, and I succumb to the power of my own thoughts. I am sent  into a tail spin of belittling comments I have stored away for myself, ” You aren’t that great of a yoga teacher, you don’t have the confidence of so and so, you haven’t even read the Bhagavad Gita yet, you don’t meditate enough” .. you get it. On and on I let myself become depressed, and completely absorbed by a sea of thoughts that DON’T define me.

I know I am not alone, and this is why I am speaking up.
I may never be rid of these thoughts, but I shall never let these thoughts prevent me from continuing on the path that I am on.  Just like  in yoga, when we find ourselves in a challenging pose we think, ” I can’t do it”,  often our mind tells us that so we listen and want to quit. As soon as we are in an uncomfortable or challenging position we want out. We don’t want anything to do with it. Even writing this blog post I am thinking, whether I even want to post this.

We are creatures of habit, it takes time and constant positive affirmation to break certain habits, but YOU GOT THIS. If its not going to kill you or harm you, don’t stop. Keep on going, you will be so happy you did. Stay dedicated to your practice and your passions, what ever they look like.  Your journey is very different from everyone else’s. Everyday there is a new lesson to learn, there will be new obstacles to jump through, and new doors that will open. Stay positive. Stay humble.  You are deserving of everything you do. You are deserving of love, happiness, joy, and wealth. Don’t be someone else, be you, be your best self.  There will always be something positive in every situation. You are not alone!

We are all trekking through our separate journey’s alongside each other.

You are the love and you are the light.

peace &  love

Rebecca

 

Happy Earth Day! I might be a little late, but celebrating nature should be something we do every moment of every day.  And look at this little baby deer, isn’t he the cutest?

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Springtime Self-Reflection

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With the change of season,  the snow has begun to melt, temperatures rise,  and  the sun shines brightly. All these things bring such delight to many after a long, cold, and dark winter.  I love when the seasons change; I feel like each time it reminds to me to sit, reflect and let go of stuff I’ve been dragging around so I can move forward into the spring months. I tend to spend a lot of time hibernating in the winter, I’d much rather stay home than go out and face the elements. Home is comfortable, safe, and warm.

When spring rolls around, I am reminded that its time to come out of my shell, move out of my comfort zone, try something new, get outside, get in touch with friends near and far.  Since we are creatures of habit, Its easy to fall  into a routine of staying within our comfort zone.

Get out there. Go for a walk, go for coffee with a friend,  meet new people, try something new, ask for a raise,  go read that book, just do whatever it is you’ve been waiting to do.  There’s no better time then now.